Another choir day.

Shit im feeling bloody sian of choir now.

Its not the music, its not the atmosphere, or nor is it the sectionals that I try sometimes to make Bass better.

Its the people.

GET it? Its the people.

And it just added to my reasons of not joining chorale in future.






And i just dont get why people are so darn ironic and cynical.

As i look through my own blog, through the archives from oct 2006, I can still remember what sort of a person I was then.

Fast eh? 1 year just flies past like this.

I can definitely congratulate myself on maturing in the past year. For those of you who dont know me, just congratulate me too. If not feel free to criticise me on the tagboard. THAT is what it is for, you know?

Looking through my own posts from 2006 before flying off to Prague and Bratislava, I can still see the sec2 in me.

You know, if there is anyone out there reading, it really helps to have a blog to keep you going, because you get to see yourself mature over a period of like, 1.5 years?

Thank you blog. For accompanying me to this far, despite the many times I've neglected you. =) Heh.

Yay. Finally added the archives to my blog. Now see my posts from Oct 2006. =)

Oh well.

I have a sudden urge to blog about my new interest. And it is.... for the piano! Oh its not really an interest for the piano, but the satisfaction you get from playing a piece without any worries.

You know, the feeling when you get when you play on the piano, is as if you are having a one-to-one conversation with the piano only. Sometimes you talk about angry stuff, sometimes sad stuff, and sometimes happy.

Pianos are fun to play on i guess. And i love my grand. =)

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And I no longer wait to see if anyone comes to visit this place. Who really cares?

Sigh.

So many things have happened to me in the past 2 months. Yet i just do not want/do not wish/do not have the time to type it out all here.

My academic life is turning out well i think. Maths CCT yesterday was simply well done. Hopefully I will be able to bring up my overall GPA and top the class in something after all these years in RI. You know it really helps your personal sense of achievement if you can score top in something in RI? It is an un-describe-able feeling that one feels, because you know you have the ability to do better than the rest.

Anyway back to Maths CCT. I think it was done quite ok seeing that I havent gotten anything wrong so far. I hope it stays this way :/ Im just going to keep hoping till the day I get my paper back.

And Chem OBA went fine. Got a pleasant score for it. Talking about this also reminds me of everything graded I have taken so far - physics quiz, maths assessment, maths TA, etc etc.

I must commit myself to doing well this year. Despite that sec 4 is now my busiest year among the 4 in RI, studies must still keep top priority, like Jeremy said. Thanks Jeremy, and I will definitely follow in your advice.

Yet another sign is that I am sitting in front of the computer sniffing. I have fallen sick again, most likely down with a flu which is most likely a bacterial infection. I promise to take good care of myself from now on. =)

Haa its 8.48pm now. What should i do now?

*Warning. Foul language ahead.*

Today is the 18th of February. I am now feeling a combination of dizziness, tiredness, and also upsetness and disbelieve. Let me tell you why.

Just a few days ago certain people that i know really well started criticising me for some reason. This reason I would have found out today by asking certain individuals that are willing to tell me about why they criticise me.

Oh well, this post isnt to scold or to target anyone, so please do not worry and read on.

I just dont get why people call me cynical and pessimist of late. Its just so random? I so totally didnt expect this at first that I have been showing SIGNS of the above problems. When you're tired, you definitely cannot blurt out your f***ing points properly because you arent thinking straight, and that doesnt give others an advantage over you to label you a pessimist.

At first, I cannot accept this, but gradually as I get to understand my problem, I realise that I am actually showing signs of such a 'disease'. WOW. I dont get it just because im super freaking tired does it give others the chance to label me as a cynic when i comment.

Im not thinking straight, just typing whatever comes to my head. So from now on, to prove that I am not such a person, I will have to take drastic action, because i totally cannot understand what my close friends actually think of me as a person.

So just watch out and see what happens to this Dennis now. =) Just wait.

P.S. I would like to thank the people that gave me a new insight to myself. Sincerely thank you to the both of you.

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Thought about it really hard just now for the past period of time.

I am determined to change, and to those true friends i have out there please help me accomplish this goal - to make myself a better person. Let me know that you are there to help me.

Its a waste if you keep hold to that stereotype of me. It just goes to show that you didnt get to know me well enough. If thats so I feel it is no point being friends anymore.

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