Hello! It's one of the rare times I pop by and blog and not do all my homework and risk getting scolded by all my teachers tmr.

Sigh.

Life's really taking a nice slight turn (like the one along lentor road) thats turning my whole life around now. It's like, I don't really feel my life being changed by its actually taken a really big turn without me knowing.

All the work not done. So little time to do. Sigh.

It's really fun to go back to school. I love my life. :)

Oh well. Going to sleep now. Rar liverpool better win the BPL this year. :)

As much as I like to blog, it bothers me to have no time to blog and leave this blog empty.

SO, i'm going to declare a hiatus for my dear blog. :)

See you soon folks. :D

My dad forward-ed this email to me, with this link in it.

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

I guess the above video serves as a good reminder as to how blessed we are living in Singapore, with friends and family, with our basic needs able to be met everyday.

Just take some time to think about it. :)

Labels: reflections

HAHAHA oh shucks 2.4's tomorrow.

I guess being in a class with benlow really changed some of my perception of things. >.< like hating pe. xP

YAY all the best for napfa. I believe I can get a silver. :)

Labels: random post

Sigh.

It's unbelievable how quickly my commitments clash already. >.<

Council camp on 17th - 19th! That's friday to sunday in the coming week, while chorale's going to be having an exchange with CJ on the very same saturday.

Sigh. :D It's so hilarious. :D

Going to watch my first piano recital later with the music people! :D I must say that they're really enjoyable to be with even though we haven't gotten to know each other for very long, they're still really cool and fun people to hang out with, even its just for a concert.

And yes there's the mad rush to take as much notes as possible during the concert. >.<

Haha my long weekend just flew by so quickly without me noticing. I still haven't done chem and physics wheee. :D

oh yeah tag replies
ernie hello fellow councillor. :D see you around soon too. :D
jiggyX thank you. :)
x uh yes if that was to point out a spelling error it was 'diminished'. >.<
josh of course it is. -.- champions league for CHAMPIONS okay. :D yay haha 4-0.
louis HI LOUIS. :D i wouldnt say it so much of vs now, more like council + chorale. >.< yeah thanks for your encouragement! see you soon! :D

Labels: chorale, council, musicclass

tag REPLY! :D

kangjie haha what are you so excited about? :D jiayou for you too! eh chorale tomorrow i think i really cant wait to see everyone again. :)

tag replies. (:

fiona i guess its over now? :)
lynnette hey hello! thank you if you voted for me. yes its finally all over now and i can take a breather. thank you for your encouragement! :D
samantha hello girlgirl. thank you so much for your blogpost. :) it really made me feel fuzzy when i read it and it's really encouraging. :D now its your turn to decide if you want to come to rj. hehe. :D
josh ignore? ignore you is it. :) yeah both ways aren't easy but i choose the way i like better.
joanne hi tag tag.
xiner HEY COUNCILLOR. :D oops i didnt go down hehe. next time must tell me la! i guess i've to start going down for match supports pretty soon. :S
mattan yo dude. :) havent seen you around in a long time too. having fun with your class? :D thanks so much for that encouragement. and i'll definitely bear in mind what you said.
daniel eeyer i develop rijc immunity against you la. -.- and dont tell me you've evolved. -.-
aloysius thanks! :D




I guess its true that in tough times, there will be people, people who you don't regard as important in your life, that instead step out to give you the moral encouragement and support that would keep one going again.

Bearing that in mind, I hope everyone would take a similar stand. Step up to help those around you even though you might not know him/her really well, for all you may know a new friendship could blossom and become stronger. :)

Thank you friends!

Labels: philosophy, reflections

wow.

just happened to look through my blog of old posts just to see how much I've changed in these few short months.

I always had the impression, that I wanted council so very badly. And yes I found the paragraph.

November 11, 2008
"
Now onto more serious stuff.
I've decided on PCMM, in case you didnt know. Thats Physics, Chem, Music and Maths for you. Decided not to take econs because since PCE were equally important, I went with my likes. =D Hopefully I'll do well in my academics in JC.

And chorale. Was planning on joining chorale at first, but the practice on Monday made me change my decision a little. Its just, I couldn't find that passion for singing which is rare in me, and the feeling that I own the music and enjoy it. Perhaps I need more time? =D

Hopefully the performance with Chorale at the WYCF performance will change my perception. Somehow.

Maybe that flame of passion for choral music is already dead! =D HAHA.

And I'm really worrying that I can't get into Council. Will that be the end of the world? ><><
"

I guess that just about sums up what I've been feeling in the past 4 months. My struggle of taking music or not, and council versus chorale.

I didn't know how to react yesterday. The signs were all bad from the previous night (i woke up sweating, liverpool lost 1-3, there was a cockroach in the car, etc.) and I somewhat consoled myself by taking a really pessimistic view, that if I didn't get into council, it really wouldn't matter.

But, God decided otherwise.

So I'm in. And I believe that's one of my goals from RI, that I wanted to fulfill since last year. I can't say how happy I must have been, but all the pessimist-ness really dimished that joy that I would have felt if I didn't think like that.

It's not all over, I'll be aiming to accomplish more in council in time to come.

I guess God has been really gracious to give that position to me, and not others that would have deserved it more. But, I would have done my part in order to allow Him to give the opportunity and not others, I guess. Well, that was what Hongrui told me anyway.

I guess the war starts now? My priorities, friends, time spent for both council and chorale would start to clash now that I've managed to accomplish both.

A review of my goals, from october 26, 2008.

"
1) Get into council!
2) Take PCMM and do H3 chem in J2.
3) Set up a new CCA, probably snooker. =D
4) Manage chorale and council at the same time if I get into both. Hopefully mr toh will allow me to juggle both.
5) Uh..? Do decently well for my subjects. As of now probably all As except GP? =D I'm just talking. =D
"

Number 1 has been at last, accomplished. So has number 2 and 4.

My greatest goal ahead, would probably been internal elections for council for secretariat, for now. But my greatest conflict, would be managing my commitments vs studies.

Sigh. (:

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I happened to stumble onto this old quote. It was something I told the whole of RV during trip last year on the night when we had reflections. If I'm not wrong, it would be the last night of trip.

`A person is not defined by the role he is given or titled with, but it is what he does that defines him.´- Dennis

My purpose for bringing this up, is not to contradict anyone or to target anyone. I'm putting it here again, simply to say, a position in council, or anywhere for the matter does not define who a person is.

It is what he does.

With that, I like to end off this post. Perhaps that would simply act as a self reminder to myself so that I'll continue to remember and live by it.

Life isn't all so sad. It definitely has its ups, and downs. :)




OH yes. Happy birthday to my dear mother. :)

Labels: council, goals, philosophy, reflections

Well, well, well.

Things have definitely turned for the better now. :D I must say it has been a really enjoyable week thus far with various minor problems along the way. :)

Tomorrow! It's been the day since I've been waiting for for a year or so. My name might probably be on that list, while the list will be shouting out all those names as it sits alone in the canteen walkway. It is only tomorrow when everyone will swarm towards it and give the canteen a new lease of life that only happens once a year.

There will be tears, and there will be cheers. It doesn't matter if I don't get it, because after all I've been mentally preparing myself for it. Call me a pessimist, but I rather not get hurt too badly than be pleasantly surprised.

Well, tomorrow's the day. Let's hope God has made a wise decision in planning for my future, with or without council. :)

And chorale has become a little sian now that we keep singing 3 songs OVER and over AND OVER again. D: I want concert more than SYF! D:

Oh well, you can't wish to have everything you want in life. But my wish for council's different, right? :)

I'll post the results up tomorrow, even if I dont get it. :)

Oh and I <3 the BW house D.

Labels: chorale, council

I guess, amidst the tough time I'm facing now, there will be people, people to emerge and help me to relive the pain that I'm feeling.

But no amount of relief will help. The pain's not excruciating, but it's hurting me bit by bit such that I can choose to ignore it and move on with life, or let it slowly hurt me and dwell on my sadness.

I choose the first. I mean, after all I believe life's too short to be sad.













Someone once said to me, " There is no shame in being betrayed by a friend, only in not trusting."

Is this how it feels like to be betrayed? To feel that someone has stabbed you with a knife in the back, yet turn around to find him/her saying that you inflicted it upon yourself?

It's so strange how 'trusting' people for such a short period of time can already bring about such pain.

That way, I choose shame anytime. I mean, why bother to feel hurt when I can just shake off the shame?





Ahh let's just get on with life and stop feeling so sad.

Labels: philosophy, reflections

I finally understood why, I actually made up my mind one year back not to join chorale.

Some things are meant to be said, and some are not.

Things should just be the way they are, until they get slightly better with the help of time.

Looking back at what I typed on march29, I must say that things change really, really fast.

All I have to say is, it hurts. :/

tag replies, and some that are long overdue. >.< gwei yes i tried that and i find it really works too. :D just that sometimes people dont appreciate your smile and you're the only one smiling which doesnt help others but demoralise yourself instead. nonetheless i shall try it and find myself in a better, happier position!
daniel THANKS DUDE. :D remember to vote for me and ask ALL your friends to vote for me, because i'm worth it and i wont waste their vote. :)
aloysius thanks! vote us okay! :D
shanin wahh oh yes i forgot to ask how you knew ian? :D
michsoh and you see your name again! :D aren't you proud of it? :) eh you still owe me something make sure you give it to me before the end of rj okay. :) time will fly.
hongrui thanks la. doesn't matter its all over now. (: your help was invaluable and i really really appreciated it. :) thanks dude.
kaile HEYY CHIO BU. thank you for the wish! i really hope i get through too! :D
fiona :D posters nice right? :D
yifan i didnt really get what that meant. explain please. :)
ian yes i do believe in Him. I hope by telling him what i want and letting him decide what I want for me isn't too much to ask for. That's just about my greatest want in rj so yes its just a small teeny request. :)
nicole i know! i hope i can share your faith for Him because I know he's doing everything for my good and the good of the school and world, for that matter. :) But then again asking God to do everything for me or ranting on Him really is more effective. :)

I'm feeling really... mixed right now.

MUSIC CONCERT today went well! I'm totally in love with my music class now because they are all awesome people and pro in both music and running a concert. :D see I agree with MICH SOH so that's another reason for her to tag again. :D

Yes though things were really last minute and should not be done again, the concert went rather well with a little hiccups here and there, delaying the programme for a while. All in all I would say it was a good first attempt and there will be many more to come in future, I hope. :D

So my thanks go to the following people:
- Mrs Chee and Dr Gooi, for their support and which without the concert would not have possible.
- Hongrui, my excellent assistant when I was having to manage council stuff. He took over sending of emails, which sadly no one replied. D:
- Daniel, Evan, Ben Ni, Ben Low, Hongrui, my excellent stage managers and helpers. :D
- Willette! My emcee partner who kept laughing at herself non-stop the day before the concert and waking up at 3.49 am to find out i've already left the com. -.-
- Michelle Tan! For making programme notes, poster design and other stuff! She's the one who makes the little things in the concert come true, so thank you michmich!
- And of course Michelle Soh and Kiwan for an interesting duet and blowing up 1 balloon each. -.-
- Yiyang! and AV crew for helping us get last minute equipment to make the concert experience better.

I can't think of who else to thank and for what, but all in all thank you to all those out there who supported and helped us for this concert. :D

And the reason why I'm feeling mixed because of how everything has been so far. The on going chorale versus council has constantly been bugging me, and I can't say that I've actually have anyone to rely on to rant. But real friends do come in times of need, and I must say I'm really thankful for this friend who I can rely on and talk to. Thank you pal.

One thing I must say here is that, I guess I've finally learnt the importance of mutual understanding between friends, because everytime there's a communication breakdown between friends it is the mutual understanding that brings them back together to be on speaking terms again and quickly rebuild the trust between them.

I can't say I've achieved that with everyone I tried on, but for those whom I have are no longer by my side all the time, which is really sad because the term 'friendship' seems to mean 2 totally different things to these 2 people.

Mutual understanding. I guess if you cant understand what I've been going through in the past week and instead assumed otherwise, you know you're not there yet. Believe me it's true.

Well, yet again I must thank this secret friend whom really helped me to open up and be able to express how I've felt to him. It's really a person like you that keeps me going in life, in school, for council to serve people like you.

Thank you. :)

Labels: musicclass, philosophy, reflections

It's hard to tell who's actually reading this blog, because some people may be sneaky and not tag but go all around telling everyone about it or something. Yeah.

I WISH. : D

I put my blog link on facebook, so it would be inevitable that a few people come to read this (one at least?). maybe like MICHELLE SOH who would read this only if I put her name here, I don't know?

It's now 1am, silent and quiet. I must say I was quite productive today, but my 2 greatest commitments in this week (council and music) are half done because I've dumped my workload onto others to help me. :) Well hongrui's doing a really really good job for music now, with all the help you can get from classmates and teachers, I'm sure this friday's concert would be a success.

But for now, let's just focus at the preparations. :) ALL THE BEST J1 MUSIC CLASS. :D I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADSSSS. :D

Then there's council, which I had many debates, conflicts, decisions, tears and others over this issue. Campaign's not over yet, tomorrow's just day 3 of campaigning and there's 8 more days to go before election results are over.

I can't wait for time to pass. >.< how I wish next friday would just come and someone tell me if I got into council or not. BUT, this never happens. Like Ms Kwan (a great mentor) said, enjoy the process while I still can because this experience is definitely something that I wouldn't get to do all the time. :)

Oh well. My grandma's chasing me off the com. Good night world.

I love my family. :D

Labels: council, reflections